"Be Stiil". You Can't Mean It.

Psalm 37:7  Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him.

My father was the most edgy and nervous man I've ever known.  He bit his fingernails down to his elbows. When he was stone-cold sober he was constantly in motion.  He could never relax and just chill.  Little things irritated him, like too many sneezes or too much coughing.  To say he was 'wound tight" was an understatement.

The people who know me the best say that I am a person in perpetual motion and that it seems I have a difficult time in relaxing.  My resting heart rate is close to 80 which was the same as my dad.  I have assumed that some of my physical traits are genetic.   Does that give me a pass to minimize God's directive to "be still" and" wait patiently for Him"?  I don't think so.

There you have it.  My first assignment is to accept this a significant part of my Sabbatical.  I can "be still" in short snippets of time but to know that this is what God is wanting me to pursue for an extended period of time ... this will be difficult.  I will not have any legitimate excuses to be in "perpetual motion" like I have at home.  My default mode (flesh) says, "You can't do that! You can't sit in an apartment without noise ... without talk radio, without music, without playing "Word with Friends.  Who are you trying to kid?"  So, I ask myself, "Have I set myself up for being down on myself before I even begin?  Oh, I keep forgetting.  The Sniper is on full alert.  God must want to do something.

Thanks for your prayers that I will do all that I can for God to do what only He can.